April 30, 2010

Not What I Was Expecting

So I had half a post written about how happy I was writing my first book review and that there will be another one coming on Monday.....

In the middle of this my Dr called with the biopsy results.  At first I thought all was good so he was calling me early and cancelling my appt on Tuesday.  No such luck.  The biopsy revealed that I have edometrial pollups.  I'll be having an outpatient surgery that should be scheduled for monday May 10th. They are doing a Hysteroscopy D&C.  I'm afraid to google it because I don't want to see all the bad stuff that COULD happen.  I'll let my Dr. explain it to me and then trust that God will keep me safe.  I know it's a fairly common surgery and that the procedure itself is not that big of a thing but this will be my first surgery EVER and I'm a little freaked out.

My Dr. explained that this isn't something that I have to do but he does recomend it.  With my family history of problems and the problems that I've had over the past 2 years I definately don't want to take my chances by not having it done.  If he's recomending it then sign me up for whatever it is. 

It is a little bit of a relief to have a name for what's been going on.  I've felt like I was a little crazy these past couple of years and making something out of nothing.  I'm very thankful that I made that Dr. appt last week and that this is something that can easily be taken care of.

Tuesday Adam & I are going in so that I can get all my pre-op done and do a complete physical. We'll also be going over the surgery's risks, benefits, scheduling, etc.

Please say some prayers for us over this next week or so.  I'm sure as it gets closer I'm going to start to panic and Adam's gonna be a nervous wreck.  I'm the one that usually takes care of things and now he's going to be the one doing that.  He's very worried about me having surgery as he sees all the risks and possible complications.

~*~

I don't want this to be a complete downer of a post so here is a bit of my original post:

Check out my first book review on my previous post.  Monday I'll be posting another review on a book that has really changed my thinking and way of life.  I couldn't have read this at a better time than right now.

This weekend on ABC please watch Extreme Home Makeover.  This episode will be the one I talked about before that is near my hometown.  Mineola is where our Chiropractor is located at and is only about 20 minutes from my house.  I can't wait to see if I see any familiar faces. 

I'm praying that the weather doesn't get too bad here today.  The weather man is calling for high winds, 1" or larger hail, flooding rains, and possible tornados.  Just another spring day here in TX :)

Have a great weekend.

You Can Be Everything God Wants You To Be by Max Lucado


The overall message in this book is that each of us on this earth is completely unique. Not only are we unique among everyone currently living, but there has never been another “you” since the dawn of time and there never will be again. God made each one of us for a specific purpose and placed us in this world at a specific time to serve a specific job. He gave each one of us the skills and tools we need in the form of our personalities, abilities, and attitudes. Our main purpose should be to help each other and to serve the Lord. In figuring out what we do “uniquely” well, we can find true happiness and we will glorify God.


Another strong message this book delivers is that God sees the big things and the small things we do equally. Helping someone out in their time of need may seem like something small to us, but it could make all the difference. We shouldn’t sit on the sidelines or play it safe because we think it won’t make an impact because it will. God says “Just do something and see what happens”.

This book may have been short but it delivers a powerful message. I love how it reminds me that my job brings me joy but sometimes I get greedy and want something “better”. I’m good at what I do and forget to find the joy in it. Through my small part in this world I could be the one to make the difference in somebody’s life. Other people who do those small things have made a difference in mine.

A quote from this book that really meant something to me:
“You are heaven’s Halley’s Comet; we have one shot at seeing you shine. You offer a gift to society that no one else brings. If you don’t bring it, it won’t be brought”

Disclosure of Material Connection: I received this book free from Thomas Nelson Publishers as part of their BookSneeze.com book review bloggers program. I was not required to write a positive review. The opinions I have expressed are my own. I am disclosing this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commission’s 16 CFR, Part 255 : “Guides Concerning the Use of Endorsements and Testimonials in Advertising.”

April 29, 2010

Feeling Better

Today is a much better day as far as the pain.  The pain/cramping feeling is still there but I don't really have to think about a move before I make it anymore.  Hopefully it will be even better tomorrow!

When I got home yesterday I made dinner and lunches and had thought I was just gonna take a nap on the couch until Adam got home from band practice.  Well he came over to say hi (since band practice is just next door) when I was finishing up dinner and suggested that I go lay in the hammock since it was really nice outside.  I wasn't feeling good at all and didn't really feel like it but I talked myself into it because it very well may be the LAST nice day.  Summer gets to TX pretty early (and brings mosquitos).

I'm SOOOO glad that I went out.  I took a blanket, pillow, my book, & cell with me.  I curled un in the blanket with it over my head and used the book as a prop so that the blanket wasn't right on my face.  I snoozed for about an hour and listened to the band.  It felt so awesome out.  The mosquitos were a little bad but with the blanket I was in heaven.

I slept so good last night and I think that's what helped me feel better today.  I'm still a little run down feeling but I can be happy and normal today :).

It's another beautiful day out my window but winds are up to 20 - 30 mph with gusts at like 40mph so I think I'll just enjoy the view from inside today!  Have a great Thursday!

April 28, 2010

It's Worth It

Well today's pain level is just the same as yesterday.  I called the dr to make sure all the side effects I'm feeling are normal and he says that they are unless I start running a fever, having body aches, or throwing up.  So far I feel fine just a constant pain that feels like a really bad menstral cramp.  I feel overly paranoid about things and kinda silly for over reacting but I just don't like to leave things to chance when it comes to things I have no clue about.  So I'll just be silly and ask my questions.

I'm taking 3 ibuprofen every 6 hours.  Hopefully that will help SOON.  I didn't get much sleep last night so I may be stretched out on my chairs in front of my desk in a little while HAHA.  I just have to keep telling myself it's worth it to get answers or rule things out.

~*~
Last night's Biggest Loser was great.  Especially since it was in Dallas Texas!  I so wish I would have know that they were there and doing the 5K!  I'm only like an hour away but don't get those radio stations.  It would have been really awesome to do that!

The people that they talked to during the 5K were so inspirational.  I hope they show them at the finale... that would be really cool.  Also I loved the part where the girl stood up at the school and talked about how her whole family was big and that's what was expected of her. She was so brave to do that in front of the whole school.  I hope that she really took something from the time she spent with Jillian and finds that self confidence.  I would have NEVER been able to do that when I was in school.

Well back to work for me now.  Have a great Wednesday!

April 27, 2010

OUCH!

Well as I mentioned yesterday I had to go to the doctor today.  It was not pleasant!

I have had some issues over the past couple of years and with family history my doctor decided that he wanted to do some further testing.  First off was a pregnancy test which came back negative.  Then he did an ultra sound to double check that and also have a look at my ovaries and uterus.  All looked great on the ultra sound.  He did see some very small spots that could become fibroid tumors later on but they took measurements and will monitor them over the years but he assured me it was nothing to worry about.

Lastly he did a biopsy of the inside of my uterus.  He explained the procedure and I knew it wasn't going to be pleasant but OH MY GOODNESS was I ever under thinking that!  He said that some people say it's not bad at all while others say it's worse than child birth.  Although I've never had a child I'm going to agree with the later theory.  Let's just say it was bad.  I'll get those results back next week when I go in on Tuesday.

He thinks the results will all come back normal but he wants to be 100% positive.  I could not ask for a better doctor. 

So even though this morning was pretty scary and painful it was worth it to just either be on my way to getting an answer or ruling something out.  So please say some prayers that those results come back normal.... Also a prayer for pain relief would be welcome :)

April 26, 2010

Great Weekend

Well I haven't gone back to my list that I posted on Friday to see how much I actually accomplished but I felt satisfied with what I did so that's all that matters.

Friday Adam & I went out to eat and got a few things at Wal-Mart.  We had some pretty bad storms come through about 3am (saturday) so I was up with my phone texting my mom who was in her closet because of a tornado warning and my mother-in-law who's satelite was still working (mine was not).  We had a couple of rotations in our area but thankfully it moved over pretty quickly.  My mom's area was OK too but there was a tornado that touched down in that county.

Saturday, Adam had to go in for his CPR / First Aid training.  I did get my kitchen & dining room completely cleaned, swept, & vacuumed.  The living was dusted / vacuumed.  Bathroom cleaned.  Laundry done.  So I felt accomplished. 

Friday night I did get something I've been wanting for a while.... Well acutally two things!  The first thing was an iron.  I've never owned one but always say "I really need to get an iron".  Well I finally remembered to go to that aisle and GET ONE!  I feel all spiffy this morning since my jeans don't fold up at the bottom!

The second thing I got was THIS:



It only took me about an hour or so to go through it.  I LOVE IT!  So after reading this I decided that I REALLY needed to reread Breaking Dawn because it's my favorite of all the books.  But this time I decided to only read the 3rd part where Bella becomes a vampire forward. I finished it yesterday!  My absolute favorite book ... Well fiction / fantasy anyways. 

Sunday I did a few other things around the house and visited with my sister-in-law and her boyfriend for a while.  Then because it was SOOO beautiful outside Adam worked on his truck and I sat by his truck finishing up Breaking Dawn.

All in all it was a pretty great weekend.

Today though is a bit different.  Please say some prayers for me.  I have an appt to see my gynecologist in the morning.  I'm having some issues and pain in my lower stomach that has been going on for about a week or maybe even longer.  I've had some kidney issues the past couple of weeks as well so it's hard to tell how long it's been there.  Hopefully it's all nothing and I'll be wasting my $30 copay :)

April 23, 2010

Ready for Quitin' Time

I'm SOOOOO glad it's Friday!  It's been a LONG week!

Last week at the Business Expo we went to, I signed up for every door prize available.  Of course I didn't win anything but did get a call from the Financial Planner that was there to schedule a meeting to go over our investments (or lack of anyways).  I met with him today and he was very impressed with our consolidation and my debt plan that I have in place.  He advised me not to do any investing now and apply any extra money towards the debts.  What he told me made a lot of sense.  He said that if I invested X amount and only got 8% return I would be wasting that money because I'm paying 23% on a debt.  My money would make a bigger impact paying off those debts so that I can invest more in the future.  I never really thought of it that way.

So I feel better having our current plan of action validated by a professional.

I'm not sure what our plans are for this weekend.  Adam has CPR / First Aid training at work tomorrow that may take about 6 or so hours :(.  Hopefully we'll go out for dinner or maybe do something on Sunday.

These are the things I could do tomorrow:
  • Go through clothes in my closet and donate about 2/3 of them.
  • Finish my task of organizing my filing cabinets.
  • Go through my Mary Kay inventory and decide what I'm not going to use personally and discount the rest.
  • Do some knitting (not productive but it's been a while & I have a few projects to complete)
  • Go grocery shopping in the morning
  • Thoroughly clean my kitchen (clean UNDER appliances)
  • Sweep / Mop
  • Workout
Those are just the things rolling around in my brain that I COULD do tomorrow.  Wonder how many will actually get done :)

This evening through tomorrow morning we under some severe weather alerts and likely tornados.  This is pretty normal for us during the Spring here in Texas but please say some prayers for any of those that will be effected by the damage that may happen.

Have a good weekend!

April 21, 2010

Light At The End Of The Tunnel

It's been a while since my last post and I honestly don't remember what all has happened over the weekend!  I do know Friday & Saturday were good days and Sunday mostly sucked.  We went to my grandpa's 70th birthday party which was great.  I love being around my family and it was really great to see my cousins baby for the first time.  The rest of the day just wasn't good.

Here are a couple of pictures that I stole from my cousin's Facebook ... haha.

Cousins!
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Me & Adam


I've talked some in previous posts about how were applying for a debt consolidation loan and it wasn't as much as we were hoping for.  Well I've done more investigating with different banks and rather than the first offer from my bank of $6,400 we went with another bank that offered us $19,200!  Very thankful for answered prayers!!  We signed the papers yesterday at the bank and checks will go in the mail today to pay off SIX of our credit cards and part of another!!!! The loan is only for 4 years and we will be saving $100 each month.  This leaves us with only 4 actual cards to pay on.  If we really hit those 4 hard we could be (credit card) debt free in those 4 years.  Even though we have the same amount of debt it's such a HUGE relief that there is an end in sight (That's not 30years away).

As part of our consolidation agreement we did have to close all the accounts that we paid off except one that they let us keep open because we have had it for so long. 

I'm just so excited and thankful that we are the road to paying off these silly debts that we have nothing to show for.  We will NEVER be in this situation again.

Well today is a beautiful day so I'm going to enjoy it.  It's "administrative professional" (AKA Secretary's Day) so our boss is taking us out for lunch.  Tomorrow is my boss' birthday so we will be taking her out tomorrow :) 

Have a great Wednesday!

April 15, 2010

A Shopping Trip & Some Pics

Last night I ended up not having to cook dinner so I decided to just do some things around town.  Normally we run our errands or go shopping together on the weekends since I work so far from home and usually go straight home to start dinner.  Adam had band practice last night so I was free to roam the town LOL.

I went and had my car washed at the full service place.  I don't normally do it because it's $13 but I have accumulated a lot of grass pieces from my yard and a layer of pollen.  When I got there I found it was Ladies Day so it was only $11 woo hoo!  After they were done I headed to the mall to look for a birthday gift for my boss.  I didn't find anything so I went over to a new store that opened recently called BJaxx.  It has handbags, wallets, jewelry etc. It was awesome!  This is what I picked up:



Aren't they pretty?  They had about 10 or so different styles of wallets and a few styles of matching notebooks.  I love anything that is black & white!  The pink never hurts as well! 

It was getting pretty late (as in 6:30) and the other stores I wanted to go to had already closed (the used bookstore mainly) so I headed home.  I probably should have worked out or something since I had the house to myself but I did get all our laundry folded / hung up which I haven't done all week.

I finally took some pics of my flowers but I did so with my camera phone so they are not the best quality. Maybe I'll get unlazy this weekend and get my camera out.

Petunias & Hostas

Azalea

Creeping Jenny

I didn't get a picture of the Spirea but I will this weekend :)

April 14, 2010

It Can't Be Easy

The business expo went really great yesterday.  Usually we have a drawing for a gift card or something but the last 2 times both winners never claimed their prizes and it was a hassle trying to get a hold of people (Who wouldn't want a gift card to Brookshires for groceries??).  So this year we didn't do a drawing but gave out bags for people to put all their booth goodies in, calendars, pens, and coloring books for the kids.  So far I don't think any of us won any of the other drawings because most of the vendors did their drawings at the end of the expo.  We did get a few possible new clients so that is great!

This morning I was watching The Biggest Loser from last night and something Bob said has really stuck with me.  I don't even remember who he was talking to now but he said "It's gotta be this hard so that you never forget it".  I've never thought about things like that.  Take weight loss.  If it was easy and simple to lose 50lbs we would just yo-yo up and down all the time.  Pig out and then lose it.  How unhealthy would that be for our bodies.  It's hard to lose those pounds and we have to struggle to do it so that we will remember that struggle and hopefully not put ourselves back in that situation. 

It doesn't just apply to weight loss though... It applies to everything.  I don't remember all the things that were simple and easy to overcome but I do remember the things that were a struggle for me.  I remember the leasons I learned from it and I'm thankful that I'm on the other side of it. I think this is the reason we have trials in our lives.  So that God can teach us leasons from them so that we don't make those same mistakes again.

Life is great!  Have an awesome Wednesday!

April 13, 2010

I Found My "NO"

Yesterday morning before work I went to the grocery store to get things we needed and stuff to make dinners for the week.  I was so hungry because I hadn't had breakfast yet and I was like .... MMMM Milano Dark Chocolate Cookies ... YUM.  All of a sudden I heard "NO".  I moved on.  Something else came up that looked yummy and again I heard "NO" and again I moved on.  After the third time I was like wait a minute... I haven't said no to myself ... in years. 

I'm not sure how it started but apparently it started Saturday and I didn't even realize it until that moment.  I was thinking back and all weekend I would start hunting in the cabinets for something to munch on and I would hear "NO" and stop.  I've been praying about my weight and asking God to help me stick with eating right and just sticking with things in general.  I tend to get all excited about something new but then it fades for me.  That hasn't been the case lately.  I can't say that I'm "dieting" but I'm trying to make better decisions about what I put in my mouth but haven't been very strict with myself. 

Thank you God, for answering my prayers by helping me find my inner "NO" again. I haven't heard it in years it seems!!

Have a great Tuesday!  Tonight our office is doing a booth at the local Business Expo.  Lot's of door prizes to enter!

April 12, 2010

Happy Weekends Are Great!

We had a FABULOUS weekend.  It was great because of things that we did but it was also a very happy weekend.  We did a lot of laughing and spent a lot of time just the two of us.

Saturday we got up early and went to 4 or 5 plant nurseries in Lindale.  We ended up going back to one that had the best prices and the most variety.  Here are some pictures of 2 of the plants I got (these are from google, not my actual plants)

                                                                Pink Ruffle Azalea
Spirea
Close-up of the Spirea flowers

I also got a flat of Petunias, 2 Hostas, and a Hanging basket with Creeping Jenny.  I'll post pics of those tomorrow.  Our Azalea & Spirea are a lot smaller than the ones shown here but are still very pretty.

We didn't plant Saturday because we were going out for my sister-in-law's birthday to have dinner and didn't want to get to into a project.  Adam put his bumper back on his truck (had to get fixed from hitting a dog) so I helped with that some and layed in the grass with Lexi while he worked. 

Sunday I was up and ready to get to work at 7am but Adam didn't get up until about 8:30 so we got outside around 9:00.  He helped me plant the Azalea and then I did the Petunias and Hostas while he planted the Spirea.  We took a break, had some lunch, and watched a little TV until it cooled off a bit so he could change the oil in my car.  I "helped" with that to by handing him tools ... :)  Around 5 or we came in, got cleaned up, and had some dinner.  It felt so good outside though that we went back out for a bit while the sun was setting and layed in the hammock ... one of my favorite things!  Of course we realized we had forgotten to watch Lost this week so that was a MUST last night.  I'm really sad that it's almost over :(  It's the best show ever!

Today at the office our phones are down so I called the phone company to get a tech out ASAP.  Until then the 4 lines have been transferred to my cell ... not cool!  It's gonna be a busy day! Hopefully they will get out here soon so my ring tone isn't going off all day and having to catch up on voicemails. 

Besides that though the day is absolute beautiful just like the past 2 days.  I so wish I was back outside laying in the grass with my puppy & Adam.  Maybe tonight :)

April 9, 2010

Another Beautiful Day

Today is absolutely beautiful.  We started out in the 30s this morning but it's in the 70s now!  No rain this weekend so I plan on spending as much time outside as possible.

I'm not sure yet if Adam has to work tomorrow so our plans are still up in the air for the weekend.  If he doesn't have to work I'm hoping that we can run a few errands after I get home and have some dinner in town.  In the morning I would love to get up early and head to a few local plant farms.  Adam has been talking about getting a few trees to plant and I'm in dire need of flowers to plant in the spots I cleaned our last weekend.  I'm trying to sneak a pink dogwood into his list of trees he's looking at :-).

If he does end up working then I'm sure I'll focus my energy to cleaning up the house in the morning and hopefully he won't have to work all day so we can still get some plants bought on Saturday and plant on Sunday.

It's going to be so beautiful and I really hope he will be off so we can enjoy our weekend!

April 8, 2010

Free Books!

Today I was introduced to something amazing by a twitter friend.  There is a websited called BookSneeze that sends you a complimentary copy of a book to review.  Basically you read it and then write a review on your blog that is linked to BookSneeze and you also post the review on a sellers site (barnes&nobel, amazon, etc).

I was skeptical at first about Free Books but from all that I have read I haven't found a "catch".  I like that they do not automatically send you a new book.  You log and choose the next book you would like to review or not.  Today there are 6 books available. I requested my first one today and can't wait to get it!  So look for a book review coming sometime in the next few weeks!  I love to read and I love to write about reading so this awesome!

My mom signed up with me so hopefully she will get her blog up and going and I can share that with you as well!

April 7, 2010

New Book

I had another crazy dream this morning and woke up thinking that my dream was actually a memory.  I remember I was looking for something but now I can't remember what it was.
This morning I got out of the house early to go grocery shopping. While at Wal-Mart I browsed on of my favorite aisles ... The book aisle!  I had seen on of the informercial segaments of the biggest loser that they have a new "6 Weeks" book (don't remember the whole title).  I've been wanted to see what it was all about so I flipped through it.  It was mostly about diabetes, cancer, and avoiding different health issues through diet & excercise.  Don't get me wrong, those things are great but not really what I need.  Hopefully I won't reach that point to ever need it but I need something that focuses on normal diet and excercise so I picked up the 30-Day Jump Start book from the Biggest Loser.  It looks pretty great from the brief flip through I did in the aisle.  I have the fitness book and when I actually USE IT I love the excercises in it.  I really need to make time for excercise and maybe precook some of my dinners so that I have more time in the evenings.

Yesterday at work I sat down and made a master list of things I needed to get accomplished this month.  I've still been listening to the Dave Navarro CDs I talked about previously and I love them.  I get overwhelmed so easy and one of the things he always stresses is to do what works for you and only focus on one area of your life at a time if the whole big picture overwhelms you.  I also usually plan plan plan things but never follow through.  His method is just jumping in and starting SOMETHING... ANYTHING towards making progress which for some reason just clicked with me! 

So I'm off to work on my list!  Have a great Wednesday! 

April 6, 2010

Crazy Dream

Last night we went to bed pretty early (at 7:45) because Adam had to get up at 3:30 and be at work at 5am.  I probably didn't fall asleep until about 8:30 but this morning I hit the snooze 10 times accidently overslept until 6am! I of course had to rush around to get ready and out the door by 7:15 but I made it and it was so worth the extra sleep.  I've been so exhausted this weekend!

During my hour long snooze oversleeping I had several dreams.  Have you ever had a dream that could seriously be a movie and you would be a millionaire if you could only remember it?  Well I do remember mine from this morning and it's pretty strange.  I don't think I could describe it in detail but Leonardo Dicaprio starred in it so it's gotta be a hit right :).

Basically, I was in the Army (or some branch of the military) and was trapped in my coat closet that was located outside.  There were men all around firing directly at me but missing.  Leonardo Dicaprio (who was on my side) shot them and I was saved but I piled all the coats on me so that nobody would see me.  Then it got really quiet all of a sudden so I came out.  The bad guy was there and he told me that he had captured all of my comrads and shrunk them down to about 3 inches tall.  Somehow, later on, I rescued them all and put them in a back pack.  I was driving around in a big Hummer (H1) and I crossed this weird road with railroad tracks, roads, and bridges all intersecting at weird points (hard to explain).  I ended up at an apartment complex but couldn't get in because I didn't know the code.  I called my sister-in-law who lives there to let me in but she said she couldn't because the bad guys would know.  My uncle came out and said that he didn't care who knew but that he would let me in.  Then I was in the apartment and everybody was normal size.  Leonardo Dicaprio was hiding in a closet with jackets all over him and saying something but I can't remember what that was.

Then I woke up.  Pretty strange huh!?! Ya probably not a blockbuster or a million dollar idea.  Where did I get all of that?  I haven't watched anything on tv about military. I haven't even seen Leo in forever on tabloids.  I did hang up all our jackets Sunday but none fell on me ... lol.  My sister-in-law does live in an apartment but it's not gated.

Well moving on to what's going on in my REAL WORLD..... I did get a bunch of junk cleaned out of my office at work.  I tend to accumulate clutter and I'm trying VERY HARD to get rid of it.  From my office I took out:
  • A Bag Of Fleece Material - I was making blankets 2 - 3 years ago.  I don't remember why it's here though.
  • A Goal Poster - From Mary Kay about 2 years ago.
  • My Tickle Me Elmo - It's the one that was so hot about 3 - 4 Christmas' ago.  I had it shipped here and never took it home.
  • A Pot Of Flowers - I posted about how I made those in the Fall but never took it home when Fall was over.
  • A Basket - Bought to keep food in for our kitchen at the office but didn't really need it. It's been waiting about a year to go home.
  • 3 Shirts With Our Company Name - Brought to let a co-worker borrow one about 2 years ago.
  • A Bunch Of Hangers - Who knows!
  • An Air Up Mattress, Sheets, & Pillows - From February (this year) when we were here all night.
How ridiculous!  I'm now in a cleaning mood so I'm about to go through a bunch of stuff piling up on my desk, in my drawer, and in my cabinets.  Nothing like some good spring cleaning!

Have a great Tuesday!

April 5, 2010

A Little Pink ..

Two posts in one day! :-D

What do you think of the new layout?  I just happened across it and thought it was great!

The day has gotten somewhat better.  Well my attitude towards the day has gotten better anyways :)

Just a Blah Kind Of Day

We had a pretty good long Easter weekend. 

Friday we worked around the house a bit, ran a couple of errands, and then went to hear my brother-in-law's band play.  I had had a headache all day from the pollen but it quickly turned into a migraine.  That quickly brought on the nauseau and Adam had to take me home.  Luckily it's only about 10 minutes from home so he dropped me off and went back.  I went to bed and stayed there lol.

Saturday we went to a friends son's birthday party and finished up our errands from the day before.  Sunday we spent the day working outside.  I cleaned out some areas to plant flowers and shoveled dirt... A LOT OF DIRT.  Now my shoulders feel like they are going to fall off!

Today has not been such a great day.  I'm not feeling very good.  I'm not sure why but just very blah (AND SORE).  I'm not really in a talking mood to my co-workers (or customers).  I would love to just go back to bed... I do have a air up mattress in my office... Wonder if they'll notice :)

Have a great Monday!  Hopefully mine will turn around soon.

April 1, 2010

Pepper

Yesterday was one of my worst days.  I've never had to make the decision to have an animal put to sleep.  I lost animals when I was a child but I wasn't apart of the decision making.  Yesterday Adam and I decided that he would take Pepper to the vet and we both expected that she would be put down.  We knew this was coming sometime soon.  She has had heartworms for about 2 years and her heart was VERY inlarged.  Although she was on all kinds of medication she would cough when she got to excited and sometimes she would just lay around.  This past weekend all she did was lay around.  The vet had put her back on her steriods to help her feel better but it just didn't work this time.  She stopped eating and then finally stopped drinking.  She lost a lot of weight just this week. 

Adam took her to our old vet because she was a lot closer than the new one we just started taking Lexi to.  I'm not sure what happened because Adam hasn't told me.  He said he didn't want to talk about it last night so I'm not sure if the vet was rude or unsympathetic.  We stopped going to her because we didn't like her or her attitude.  I pray that she treated Pepper with love and kindness.

I'll miss her so much.  She was more than a pet or even a furry child.  She was apart of us, our family, and our friends.  When we first met Pepper she lived with one of our friends.  He had found her as a stray when she was about a year old (or younger).  We were at a party at his house, sitting in lawn chairs around a fire.  Pepper came up to me and nudged my hand so that I would pet her.  She stayed with me that night with her head in my lap.  It was love at first sight.  I told Adam then that I wanted her.  Soon after our friend just couldn't afford to keep and feed her and asked if we would take her.  Without any hesitation we said yes.  We had plenty of land for her and we both already loved her.  We had her for about 6 years.

We didn't realize that she had a daily routine while we were away until a few years ago. In the mornings after we had both left for work she would go over to my sister-in-law's house next door and lay on her front porch.  She would greet the kids being dropped off (day care) and would play with them during the day.  She was so patient with them and allowed them to climb on her, pull on her, and run with her.  After a day of play she would be waiting at my mother-in-law's house (our other neighbor) when she got off work.  She would greet her and then wait for my father-in-law to get home before coming back home.  When Adam got home she was waiting for her afternoon treat from daddy.  When I got home she would run around my car barking hello and hurrying me up so she could have dinner. 

It's amazing how you have this daily ritual that means so much but you don't really realize HOW MUCH it means until it's gone.  Yesterday was spent completely in tears.  I never knew I could cry so much. 

Today is better though.  I know that she doesn't hurt anymore.  She doesn't have to hack and couch when she moves which I know hurt her even more.  Even though knowing all that I'm still sad but I can deal with it better today.  I can smile and remember her beautiful face, her sweet eyes, and how silly she could be.


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