The Cycle

Well I'm not sure what happened but the same day I got a nasty bug on my office computer and it's been in the shop getting fixed.  I got it back Friday but didn't actually get to use it until yesterday.  I was stuck at the front desk working all last week! :(  Luckily my whole hard drive didn't have to be redone.  It's completely backed up but it's a pain to have to go back and download all the programs, software, etc. 

I'm very overwhelmed today.  My workload and to dos at the office and at home have just caught up with me for some reason.  When I get overwhelmed I shut down.  I'm struggling to not do that.  Hibernating will not help the situation.  I just see no way to get caught up on EVERYTHING.  I know it's a one step at a time thing but I need to be caught up. NOW.  Frustrating.

This is a re-occurring thing in my life. I'm going along good, I get behind, I get overwhelmed, and I get depressed.  Somehow I get up and back out of that and life is good again but it just feels like it's the beggining of a whole new cycle.  I just want to be good (emotionally) and stay that way.  Some people talk about being on an emotional roller coaster. I feel like I'm on an emotional fair ride that spins in circles and goes up and down and slings you side ways until you are so dizzy you think you're gonna hurl.  I don't have the answer to fix this or figure it out but I'm praying about it.  That's all I know to do for now.

Hello!

Hello blog world! It's been a while since I've taken time to type out a post on here. I've been keeping up with my blog reading just not commenting very much.  I don't know that life has been any busier I've just sorta been down the past month and let things slip.  I'm not sure why I go through cycles like that once or twice a year.  I wouldn't say I'm depressed but just down. 

Anyways! Here is some random stuff that has been going on in my life lately.

• Moved my tall bookshelves from the guest room to my bedroom. They were formally used for my Mary Kay inventory but as I'm not selling any longer I decided to put them to use holding my books that are all in storage containers still.  It took all weekend. I had to move stuff around in our "junk room" to fit my treadmill that was collecting dust in the bedroom. Then had to clear off the book shelves in the guest room so that they could be moved.  I have boxes to go through now of MK stuff but that will have to be another day.  We located all the tubs with books in the "junk room" and they are now in the hall waiting to be sorted.  It's rediculous how many books I've collected!
• I got a new car a couple of weeks ago!  I loved my old one (07 Ford Fusion) but it had just crossed the 70K mile mark and had a couple of things going wrong that were gonna cost a bunch to fix. Because I rack up the miles so quickly the warrenties had already expired :(.  So we now have a 2010 Ford Fuxion and I'm in LOVE.  I've always wanted a red car and I've always wanted a sunroof. Some how I lucked out and now have BOTH!  I never want to get rid of this car!  We did this at just the right time when they were closing out 2010s and got an awesome interest rate of 3.9%.  Here's my new baby:

• I finished all 7 of the Harry Potter books in about 4 weeks.  Deathly Hallows is now one of my all time favorite books!
• This may be a result of my extensive reading this year but I've always had really bad headaches and the last time I had my eyes checked was 2005.  I needed glasses them but they made the headaches worse so I never wore them.  Well I've had some VERY bad headaches in the last week that were mostly behind my eyes.  I saw the eye Dr. and he says I'm very nearsighted and have a stigmatism in both eyes.  Fun.  I picked up my new glasses saturday and decided I didn't like the frames and had an issue with the lenses.  I took them back today to get fixed and picked out different frames.  They really do help and when I wore them this weekend my head didn't hurt.  Today I'm not wearing them (because I took them back) and my eyes are killing me.  So hopefully I'm the right road to get that solved.
• My co-worker / friend no longer works here :(.  Very sad but hopefully her new job is working great for her :).  My office life has become pretty hectic now taking everything back over after a year of sharing responsibilities.
• We saw the movie Inception recently and OH MY GOSH it was AWESOME!  Definately recomend it!

Well I'm sure I'm leaving out something but honestly my life is pretty quiet and routine.  Sometimes I like that but a little excitement is great. One drawback to living in a small town I suppose.

Permission To Speak Freely (Book Review)

This book started out as a question on a blog: “What is the one thing you feel you can’t say in the church?” It came together after hundreds of e-mails, letters, and messages to the author about things people felt they couldn’t say out loud because of fear of rejection or judgment. The author was curious as to why people felt this way and wanted to see what if people confessed the shame they keep hidden. She shares her life in a very honest and human way that I have yet to read before now. She tells about her brokenness and how confessing the things she kept hidden have helped others and how we can do the same.


The book is not only about things we feel we can’t say in the church itself but also about things we feel are taboo to talk about in general. Sure the concepts of adultery, porn, abuse, etc are discussed in sermons, books, and conversations but do people really get down to the nitty gritty, dirty, part of the issues? Do the “saints” of the church really talk about the flaws of their life or do they just put on a mask and portray the image of “everything is fine”. We should speak out! When we confess our shame to others and talk out those situations, not only do we heal our own brokenness but we help others in the process. Maybe the person we confess to is struggling with the exact same thing or it could be something completely different but equally shameful that they need to get off their chest.

The overall flow of this book was wonderful. I started in the introduction and didn’t even realize I had transisted over to the book itself until I was at the final chapter. The book is sprinkled with poetry, lyrics, stories, and beautiful art that go right with the flow. This is not your typical self help book. It’s a book that puts out the raw information and makes you really think about your life and how you share it with others around you.

I don’t know if I can really convey the heart and soul of this book so check it out for yourself. It’s a quick book to read, took me just a few hours over a couple of days.




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