A New Chapter

This week has been a little weird for me.  It’s the first week that I’m not making lists, planning food, or some type of party! I planned on taking it easy this week, relaxing, and getting my house back to normal.  Well now I’m sick! Figures right? I don’t have a full on cold but it’s some kind of sinus infection or laryngitis that is kicking my butt.  My chest rattles when I breathe and by the end of the day I’m worn completely out just from a normal work day!

This has been a BIG week for me in my personal life though.  Adam and I had a discussion earlier in the week about our future.  I have been wanting to grow our family for a while but I haven’t brought it up for various reasons but lately because his sister is pregnant. For one, I didn’t want him thinking it was just baby fever.  I have felt this way a lot longer than she has been pregnant.  Also, it’s her time to be in this spot light.  She has wanted a baby for so long and didn’t think it was something that could be possible for her.  She deserves all the attention and everyone taking care of her right now. 

So I decided to finally bring this subject up.  She is due pretty much any day (dilated to a one!!).  I don’t know why I felt now was the right time but I just did.  So I wrote Adam a long letter about the future I would love to have for us.  I let him know all my reasons, fears, anxieties, and hopes.  After he read my letter and processed it for a bit we had a discussion. Guess what? He’s on board!! Sure he is still nervous about it (so am I to be truthful) but we are both willing to go on faith and see what the future holds for us!  I never thought this day would come for me.

I do have one goal to meet for myself though.  I want to finally get out of the 200s in my weight! I haven’t been under 200lbs since my teens.  So after I lose 17lbs we will start trying!! I will keep trying to lose weight until I am pregnant and then after talking to my Dr. we can decide what types of food I should eat and how to maintain my weight and not gain much during my pregnancy.  Of course I want to be as healthy as possible before getting pregnant but this is at least a goal and a start of this process that I’m really excited about.

My Dr. is aware that I’m on Weight Watchers and losing weight.  At my last visit he was all for me getting pregnant any time because I am healthy other than my weight.

So please say some prayers for us as we start this new chapter of our lives!!

(If I know you in real life, please keep this on the down low! :) Thanks!)